twotwentyfour

i don't know what's cooler... being loved? or loving? or being in love?

when people get struck by the red and swelling old arrows of cupid, who knows what could happen, right? it gets people high and drugged up... as though they OD'd down TJ... and surprisingly, gets a knack at being high, but miraculously wakes up through it all... get up and live life like never before...

it's like being enslaved, and liking it anyway... like being trapped in a prison cell and still get to give thanks for it... it's like being in a maze for all your life and finally getting to the end and liking what you see... wanting what you see... and needing what you see... it's a feeling no one would ever want to get out of... and that feeling is here to stay... for the first time in one's life, loving would be THE selfless thing that could have been ever done possible... it's when people start to think of someone other than themselves... it's when eating and food is not an issue... or sleeping... or even that very expensive gadget you've been saving up for... instead, you get to spend it on the savvy meal for you and your love... it's not about that anymore... it's not about thinking anymore... it's about feeling... giving... loving...

suddenly,  every little thing you do is for someone else... not for the glory of self love... not for self-gratification nor self-satisfaction... it's more about being someone else's slave... not because your in debt... but because you want to be...

love doesn't have to be complicated... it's as simple as saying "i love you,too..." when you know that that's the truth... nothing more... nothing less... just LOVE...

it's no longer about fitness and wealth... it's more of personhood and trust... it's not about how you look at yourself... but how you are in someone else's eyes... view... perspective... and to that person... you are more than enough... more than wonderful... more than perfect...

it takes a long time getting there... but you will... eventually... slowly... but surely...

LOVE will... (24)

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first entry,huh?! what an honor... i think...??

ever had a moment when you felt that you wanted something more? or maybe not more, just... different,new...? not just the everyday new thing... something big, a drastic change maybe... ever had that?

i guess every once in a while, everyone has that... otherwise,  what's the point in a making a change,right? when things get a little too comfortable, it is but human nature to desire for something different, something that would compel us and amaze us... we need to be shocked once in a while,i guess... it's a natural reflex for us, a need, a prerequisite for "living"...

don't get me wrong... i'm completely happy and content with how my life is... but sometimes, there's this silent urge within me, and within all of us for that matter, telling us that we deserve something more... something more than we have grown used and accustomed to.. it's not a selfish need... it's not an ungrateful soul, is not even a sinful thought... it's a natural need... a basis for survival... change... even in loving...

gone were those moments when a single touch of his shoulder to yours sends up shiver to your spine... and your succeeding kisses were nothing compared to your very first... well, mine wasn't pre-ordained or planned,though... it was more of a surprise on my part... and considering that i didn't kiss back...

i mean, being with your boyfriend for a little less than two years... people do have those "dry" moments,right? it's when everything seems so pointless... so monotonous, so dragging... and it makes you wonder if those hours,days,weeks,months or years are worth the trouble... or if the relationship was simply a waste of time... or if it would have been wise to spend those times differently...

gone were those moments when you were so sure that this was what was right for you... or so you think... was it just a sudden lapse of reason? was it a selfish and sudden spur of a moment thing? or was it meant to last? was it the best and most worthwhile thing you've ever done in your entire life? what was it all? delusional reality? untimely illusion? unreasonable ambition?

none of the above. it's the real thing... it's human... and even if there is this desire for change, difference, or even omission at times, it will never beat the fact that loving IS living... and loving that single person, may bore yourcarnal nature to the core, but it will forever keep your heart as warm... and even if it feels a little too dry at times, it will always find a way of surprising you...

love will... (24)